Support

Give me support, I'll walk a hundred miles. Tell me which direction to go, I'll sit down like a little kid in the grocery store whose temper tantrum didn't work.

I had two incredible conversations the past two days. One with the local Elim Fellowship rep. about wanting to see how they could help support me and encourage me and what they could do to help me. I left the meeting SO ENCOURAGED! Far more than all the people who have told me what I should or shouldn't be doing for the last few months. And the thing is, he didn't even point me in a direction. He basically said, "We've got your back." But it made me want to run full force forward. (And no, I don't know what that will look like.) And it made me want to run after all that God has for me. Interesting how support encourages far more than people throwing out constant suggestions on how I can change my life.

And then today, I had an awesome and encouraging conversation with a Christian friend. It was WONDERFUL!

Anyway, I think we should all be able to learn and give each other advice. But there's a difference between giving advice and constantly telling a person what you think theycshould do. I am VERY GRATEFUL for those who support me, offer advice, pray for me, but don't try to shove me in one direction or another. It means more than you know!

Daddy...

Running through the grass....

"Daddy, Daddy! Now what do you want me to do now? I finished what you told me to do."

"Honey, let's swing on the swing together. Can I hold you for a little while?"

"Sure, Daddy, but don't I have a lot of things I should be doing?"

"They can wait. Can I just love on you for a while?"

"Daddy, I need to know what I'm doing next before I can relax."

"Why? I've never failed you. I've never not told you at the right time, the perfect time. Do you trust me?"

"Yes.....but people...they ask. They ask all the time what I'm doing next. I HAVE to know."

"No, honey. You don't need to know quite yet. And they don't need to know right now yet."

"But Dad....... they drive me nuts."

"Honey....let's go swing...."

"sighs."

"Do you trust me?"

"Yes. Or at least I'm trying to. I get in my own stubborn way. I always try to figure out what's next and plan my own life out. I know you know much better for me, but I get pestered with questions, get looks of those who think I should be doing something more productive, looks from those who never think I'm doing well enough. But Daddy, I'm trying to be like you. And to love people and care about them. And I'm happy with my life. I just hate being bugged every spare moment I have........ oh......sigh...there I go again.....getting all upset. Yes, Daddy, I trust You."

"Can we go swing now?"

"yeah....let's go swing. Daddy?"

"Yes?"

"Can you just love on me for a while? I miss You...just being with You and having You hold me."

"It would be my delight."


a summary of a conversation with Jesus this morning......