I need Jesus

Many of your know that my back was in killer pain all last week. It got a little better and then it got a lot worse. I still don’t know what the cause of it was, but I became very close friends with the chiropractor, tylenol, and ibuprofen. And icy hot was there alongside. By Friday, I was in so much pain that I was messing things up at work and had a small accident. All the while, I wasn’t making time to spend with Jesus. I believed He could heal me and was faithful, but was relying on everyone else just to pray me through and then getting upset for those prayers not appearing to do anything. I literally had people from all over praying. It gave me a whole new appreciation for those who live in pain all the time, and how aggravated they must become with those who are always praying for them and saying things will change and they don’t.

Friday night, I came home, stumbled in the door, barely able to move without being in extreme pain. My parents prayed with me and I just began to cry. I went to bed and just cried and cried. I don’t ever remember being in that much pain and on top of the pain I messed up all this stuff at work. It was awful. And I, through choking on my tears, began to cry out to God. I called off work the next day and slept until after noon (making up sleep I’d lost in pain). I had an emergency visit to the chiropractor that afternoon. But then as the afternoon went on, I realized something....I was only in pain like 5% of the time. I don’t think God was being cruel to me. I think He was showing me that I couldn’t do it on my own.....that I needed Him. Sunday morning, I was able to bend over and pick up my shoes to put on. It was SUCH an accomplishment. I had trouble even bending an inch forward all week, and then Jesus intervenes and heals me and I had almost forgot what it was like just to live life and pick up things and get in my car without pain. But God is so good. He healed me and then He was healing people at Higher Calling last night. He is just AMAZING!

Word for the week: Time with Jesus is essential.